with love, sunshine.

if I died tomorrow,
I would die full of pity for the emptiness that I'd be causing you.

if I died tomorrow,
I would die full happiness knowing that I was loved by you.

if I died tomorrow,
I would die with a tear streaming down my cheek because I broke THE promise.

if I died tomorrow,
I would die full of regret, knowing that I didn't say everything I should have.

if I died tomorrow,
I would die with bittersweet memories of current friendships, and past ones.

if I died tomorrow,
I would die full of sorrow knowing that I never was able to make you proud.


Things changed when you left me.
I grew up, and I didn't turn out like you had hoped.
All the protection in the world couldn't have helped me from this.
You knew that too.
I chose the wrong path, but I'll be damned if I don't fix it.
I'm not like the others, I was always special.
You told me that everyday.
I promise I'm going to make you proud,
and I promise the next time I cry, it won't be because I'm sad, or because I miss you;
it'll be because I've finally made you the proudest dead man.
you can't tell me, but i'll know.
until we meet again,
i love you.

[&sunshine.]