Reality.

Tonight a really good friend of mine was asked to share her testimony at her church's high school night (Reality). I know I had heard the story a million times before, and I knew that I needed to go and support her. I had been to Reality with her before, and I had met some really good friends of hers. They were all super nice and totally down to meet new people. Tonight when I went, I met some new kids, also super nice, and my eyes were opened when some of these kids spoke. I came to a realization of how much I'm missing by not attending church weekly. I'm missing out on kids who have the same morals I have. So, a lot was discussed tonight, and a few things that are on everyone's mind were brought up. Something that spoke to me, one-hundred percent, was the difference between true love and lust. I feel the need to tell you exactly what these girls talked about tonight. I'll try my best to tell you how it was told to me.

The definition of lust; "very strong sexual desire"; straight out of the dictionary. All kids have nowadays is lust. Not everyone has it, but so many kids do. It makes me sad to see that all the kids want is anything physical. What's up with that? They say what they have is "different this time" you know, the "real deal". It's not the real deal when you sleep with each other just because, and suck face because that's what you think is right. Don't get me wrong, I've had relationships too and they used to be based off lust. I thought the dude was cute, and we dated. They were all stupid and immature, and from this point on I don't even think I can really call them relationships. From this point on, I'm going to deny I've ever had any "real" boyfriends because I honestly haven't. So the question is what is love? love; "an intense feeling of deep affection"; but it's so much more than that. Love is about giving. Giving yourself one hundred person to another individual. It's genuine and absolutely undeniable.

From 1 Corinthians 13:
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is
not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered,
it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices
with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always
perseveres.

It's love. It's something I cannot wait to give to someone hopefully very special. However, before I can love anyone else, I need to love God above all. I'm sorry, I'm going to get into being a bit of a Jesus freak right now, so if you aren't into it, I suggest you stop reading. You've had fair warning. I know that there is a part of me that is longing for a love that no one else can give me. It's a love that I can only receive from God. I've already been saved, or at least I thought I had. I've always called myself Christian, but never really lived up to it. Tonight, once again, opened my eyes. I would like to leave with one last passage. It's 1 Corinthians 13, "And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love." I never knew what that truly meant until tonight, it was on my ring, but it had no true meaning to me. Tonight changed that for me.