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Thursday, February 19, 2009

pressure

Lately I've been feeling some extreme pressure. Pressure from family, pressure in school, and it's actually being to drive me insane. I'm always working so hard to the best at everything. It's a lot to live up to. My family doesn't have high standards usually, by these past few weeks they've been wanting me to over-achieve more than I already do. They always think "there's room for improvement" even when sometimes there isn't. I've also been having trouble maintaining the expected grades. I mean I'm still on honor roll, but I'm not at the "straight A standard" my parents and I had set for me. It's just bothering me, that sometimes, when I may slack off a little bit, I get yelled at, and when someone else slacks off a lot nothing happens. Maybe it's just expectations, but maybe it isn't. asdgkl; i hate this.

1 comment:

Cindy said...

awuh hun, im sorry to hear about the pressure that's going overboard in your life right now, trust me i know how you feel but I guess, family just wants the best for you? They push you so that you will KNOW what that pressure will feel like in the future except the fact that they won't be there to pressure us when we are in college. We just have to know ourselves, when to work our butts off.
(: