And the award for the most pathetic life goes to Kati. Congrats?

Lately, my life has done a complete 180.
At first, I just couldn't admit it, but I guess now I can. I was in denial, thinking things would just go back to the way they were, but I feel as if nothing will ever be the same, ever again. I've lost friend, family, confidence, and so much more in just the past 3 months. I'm not even sure what went wrong, but I don't think I can fix it. I feel like that people I was so close to, have just faded away. I catch myself often talking about them in the past tense, and I'm always wondering how they're doing, but I can never muster up the confidence to ask them. How can someone you were once so close to just become nothing to you? I don't understand it. I have also found that I've been crying a lot more lately then I ever did before. I've been thinking thoughts I've never thought before. Thinking about my life, and what went wrong. But hey, I guess that's just high school? Like many people say, I guess things have to change, but why do all good things have to come to an end?